going off my tumblr because my delena emotions are getting the best of me, I just can’t ok　

Okay, so first off I was so pissed at Elena for telling Damon that she only ‘cares about him’, but then I got it. The writers wasn’t going to let Elena tell Damon that she loves him the first time on the phone. They didn’t want to spoil it by her saying ‘I love you but I choose Stefan’ - no the writers are basically taking all the time in the world to make those three words extra special. 

I was also very angry about her choosing Stefan but I get it. They can’t have her choosing Damon while she still loves Stefan. So basically I think season 4 is going to be all about her realizing that Stefan isn’t her ‘epic love’. I was so pissed at the writers but it all makes sense - they can’t do Delena while Stelena is still in the picture, so I am okay with her choice, because it only makes me even more certain that Damon/Elena are endgame.

Damon said “I get it, it’s always gonna be Stefan” and Elena’s response was much more different than I thought it would be - I can’t think about always right now. She knows deep in her heart that it’s not always going to be Stefan. She knows that it already isn’t all about Stefan, but still she chose him becaue what kind of a person would she be if she picked Damon and still had feelings for Stefan? No, she needs to be able to think about forever, and she will - soon.

‘Maybe if you and I had met first’ - this line is everything to me. Elena said these things not knowing the truth - that she actually did meet Damon first. And you could see how taken she was with him. Those two minutes they talked, all of my Delena feelings were crying and screaming. Now Elena is going to remember everything. Really remember - she will remember that she met Damon before she met Stefan, she will remember that he told her he loved her and compelled her to forget so she could be with Stefan - she will know just how selfless he is, how she is never going to be able to shake him - because he consumes her.

“You want a love that consumes you” - THIS fucking line right here, is Delena’s relationship put into a few words. She is going to remember everything now. Her emotions are going to be strengthed, Damon is going to consume her even more. She will realize that what Damon said that night of the accident was right. She wants all of those things; passion, danger, consumingness - and she is going to realize that all of those things are Damon. 

She is going to realize that it’s not Stefan that is her epic love - it is Damon, because Damon consumes her like nobody else. Because she will never be able to shake him. 

“I know you want to stop it. Protect your ship from it. But you’re Stelena fan. You don’t see what I see. It’s not just that TVD writes Delena as a better ship. It does, but, Delena changes TVD too. Delena challenges you, surprises you. Delena makes you question your shipping preference, beliefs. Stelena is different. Their love is pure and Stelena will always be good for TVD. Delena is either the best thing for TVD or the worst?”

I am too emotionally attached to my OTP, they are breaking my heart ok.